I think we've know each other a lot,don't you think so?       Sure it's very limited to know a person's deep inside by just talking to him,but at least we can get closer.       But think about back to reality, there'll be much more barrier for us to communicate, isn't it?       I believe it's the best way for us to contact with each other.       When we're in the unreal world, everybody seems to be perfect,but we're all wicked more or less after all.       We're looking for things which are perfect, but we'll disappoint someday.       I don't want our dream ne ruined, I hope everything stay as they're perfect.        The fact is,I'm just too plain,too pale,too worthless.       You don't know my past, and that's much worse than present.       I just got a little bit better now.       I'm sorry I can't open myself all of a sudden,because I'm still not sure if I can trust anyone.       I'm afraid that anyone who approaches me will harm me, because I'm too weak and too fragile.       What i could do was just staying in hatred without the ability of fighting.       Even my parents,my teachers,my "friends" harm me.       So who left there can be reliable for me?       I've been always alone from the begin to the end.       The most important thing I learn recently was that people had to learn to be independent~       The fact is everyone in the world is both lonely and beloved.       We're lonely because we have to face the frustration,misery,all the   things in our life and also the destination - death all by our own.       We can't share to let someone else to carry for us.       We have to learn studying ,working by our own.       But we're never lonely because no matter who we are,        we have the reasons to come to this world,        we always have someone who cares about us,       we always have things and duties which are not finished~